Thanksgiving and Cauliflower Potatoes....and Popcorn shhhhh!!!!!!

Ok, so last week I lost two lbs, and I am down a total of 24lbs.  This is good but not good enough.  I wanted to be down 30 lbs by Thanksgiving, and If I reached this landmark, then I was going to allow myself some pie, but alas I didn't make my goal.  this was also a big week since I am two thirds of the way done with the program.  When I went in for my appointment I was discouraged at only losing 2 lbs bit the nurse assured me that I was doing a good job, and warned me about not rewarding myself with food.  I thought this was interesting since in the past I always have.  She told me I should reward myself with a new pair of shoes, or a massage.  This was an interesting concept to me since in the past I have always rewarded myself with food.  This has always been my downward spiral.  I will diet diet, and lose lose lose, all the while telling myself as soon as I get to Mexico I am going to go crazy.  then I go on vacation, and go crazy, and never get back on the bandwagon.  I LOVE that this program was designed to teach you from the beginning how to keep the weight off.  This was especially helpful during Thanksgiving.  I made cauliflower potatoes and they were delicious.  I made sure to only eat a tiny bit of stuffing, and I ate it with my turkey to cancel it out.  all in all I would say my first holiday on this plan was a success since I didn't gain an ounce, I actually lost about 8 ounces, but I am only counting full lbs, so all in all I didn't gain.  Today when I went for my weigh in they said that traditionally people will gain a couple of lbs over the holiday, so to remain flat was a huge success, and I even got to eat some popcorn....shhhh don tell them!

stress...stress...stress

So this has been quite the up and down journey for me.  I haven't updated in a few weeks, and I am not sure really why but I am down a total of 22 lbs.  I know I should be really ecstatic, but I am very discouraged.  I have been trudging along with my weight loss very successfully until recently and it has made me very disappointed.  Three weeks ago I lost 22 LBS Holla!!!!  Two weeks ago I gained 1 LB......ughhh last week I lost 1LB...whoop dee doo. This is very discouraging since during this time I never cheated once!!!  I am writing this right now in anticipation of my weigh in today.  Today is a big day, not only do I have my weigh in with the big scary scale that measures my body composition, but I am not losing what I want to be losing and I am scared, and to top it all off, it is Thanksgiving this week!  I told myself if I wasn't down 35 LBS by now that I would not indulge myself, so I guess the pecan pie will have to wait.  Bummer!!!!!

I know there are a few things attributed to my lack of weight loss.

#1 Stress---There have been a lot of changes for me both personally and at work.  Several weeks ago my boss was let go, and last Friday they let 4 sales people go at my work.  I don't think I am in danger of losing my job, but there are major changes happening right now and that stresses me out.  I am a creature of habit, I always order the same thing at restaurants, I wear my clothes in the order they are hanging in my closet from left to right, and I lay my clothes out every night before I go to bed, so I all this change is stressing me out.  I know in the long run things will be awesome, it is just the road getting there that is hard.

#2 Antibiotics---I have been taking this antibiotic for the last couple of weeks, and I think this may be making me retain water....there is no guarantee, and I will fin out today but I swear it is.....My lips are dry and cracked and I have been watching my water intake....so I am blaming it for sure....cross your fingers, I am leaving in 14 minutes!